*I let out a long sigh and close my eyes and try not to think of anything, her perfume consumes me and I feel my heart breaking into a thousand so I try... despite everything, it can't end like this.. not after everything we've done.. sure we got divorced.. but.. we can't cut the stitches like this. We have a daughter, we can't do this to her. I refuse, I don't want to, from the bottom of my heart*

.... please.. don't leave me, I beg you, I'm sincere I was horrible to you, I know it, and know that I didn't mean what I said for a second. I know you need time and space to get back in shape, but I'm here, I can help you, I know I'm the source of your unhappiness, I ruined everything, I should never have come into your life, I shouldn't have accepted your marriage proposal like that you wouldn't have suffered so much, I shouldn't have given birth to Yukoi like that fewer chains will have been broken. I know we have so many negative vibes, so many things to review, but from the depths of my heart, a voice tells me that I haven't done enough, I can still do more, I can change, I can try, for you, for me, for Yukoi, for us...

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*I wait a few seconds before letting some weapons flow and say in a weak voice*

I want to be there for you, I want to see you smile again, like the first time we saw each other..in high school, like the time you confessed that you loved me, like the last time you saw me in a wedding dress. I want to see your smile again, your joy of living..and I want you. To feel you, your smell, your touch, your skin, it's you..and no one else. And I..I don't want to move on, no other man will make me happy like you made me happy, you gave me back the taste for life, when I was at rock bottom, when I wanted to stop everything..and just throw myself under his train tracks, do you remember? I want to save you this way..I want you to stay up with me, to be there when Yukoi takes her first steps, when she has her first words, when she grows up, when she gets married..please..

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I beg you, I would be ready to do anything..for you, I would do everything you tell me, without flinching without..arguing..I..May seem crazy..but..I tell the truth..I have never been so sincere, let's rebuild everything, and create..together the life we ??want,...***..I love you..

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